I can\u2019t say it was a great weekend of activity, although I did help a friend out with something that\u2019s been holding her back from getting a lot of work done. It\u2019s good to know you can help friends and receive the simple joy and satisfaction that comes with that and the recognise the appreciation and thanks.<\/p>\n
Outside of doing that, the rest of the weekend has been spent examining and reorganising my plans for the coming few months. Financially things are just limping along, but it\u2019s not the money so much as the disintegration of the faith in myself and my skill set that\u2019s more concerning now. I know rationally I have a huge range of skills. However at the moment they\u2019re not being used to their full potential. I can see this, but have been feeling at a loss about how to kick start the process again. The vain hope of getting a job again that will use these is solidifying into a figurative concrete wall, grey, uninteresting and unattractive.<\/p>\n
Coupled with that is a major lack of motivation for anything, it\u2019s debilitating. It\u2019s not accompanied by the profound Depression that I was feeling 18 months ago, but somehow this is more insidious. The subtleness of it is what\u2019s most concerning. So today I\u2019m spending time regrouping myself mentally and strategising a fresh path for the next 3 to 6 months.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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