It’s been a while since my last post however I’ve not been doing nothing. I’ve been off the Anti-Depressant’s a month now completely. I’m shocked at the positives that have come from that so quickly.<\/p>\n
Now before I go any further don’t think for a minute that I believe that taking the course of AD’s for three years was a bad choice. Clearly it wasn’t: it enabled me to leave the toxic place of work that was driving me to the brink, enabled me to make some other decisions that have since clearly moved me into a more responsible attitude towards the further directions my life will take.<\/p>\n
That said, I could probably have come off them 12 months after I went on them after having left the toxic workplace. Working there was clearly the most damaging thing I was doing to myself from a health perspective. Needless to say it’s done now, things are moving forward more quickly than I anticipated. All of this is good. I’ve not had a single depressive bout for the thirty odd days since coming off them.<\/p>\n
I’d come to consider that rather than assisting me now, the AD’s were actually hindering me from moving back into the world I needed connect with again. It seemed to me that the only way to know that for sure was to come off them again and see what awaited me on the outside<\/strong>. I had discussed this with my GP six months back and was ready to wean off them when I decided that due to an impending job prospect I’d wait in case the levels of demand on me were such that I still needed to be stabilised<\/strong>. However that situation passed, the job didn’t eventuate and with another prescription renewal dawning I decided now was the time. There were no significant pressures outside the normal and I was dealing well with them. However my life was feeling like I was now treading water in the Sargasso Sea. I was uninspired, feeling creatively hindered and generally weighed down<\/em>. It felt like it a draft print looks from a laser printer. There but barely.<\/p>\n Against and I must stress the against my GP’s suggestion<\/strong> I decided to come off cold turkey. We’d originally planned a tiered approach until I was no longer taking them: pretty much a two or three month timetable. But given that I now had what I considered the perfect time to do it quickly and without any significant life pressures looming I decided to jump off the figurative bridge.<\/p>\n I didn’t do this blindly or unprepared however. I renewed the prescription keeping it easily to hand in case it was needed. I’m an old hand at coming off mood & mind altering substances via the cold turkey method and confirming no physical risks from doing so with this medication in particular, I decided to commit to the path. I had backup plans in place, friends who were aware of what I was doing and why. They would be ready to assist if necessary.<\/p>\n Once again I strongly urge against this method without certain things in place<\/em>. This is definitely a case of only if you’re fully aware of what might be going to happen and do your best to plan for it: certainly do not do it<\/em> without people helping you. As I said even though I’ve had<\/em> previous personal experience coming off a lot of illicit drugs, cold turkey is not without it’s risks<\/em>. I cannot emphasise enough that it’s NOT something to go into without your eyes open and other people to be there for you if it all goes to hell<\/em>. There are risks of physical reactions and extreme psychological reactions including potentially suicide.<\/p>\n A month later, my head is clear, my body feels grounded<\/em>, I’m awaking from sleep far more refreshed and I’ve been impressed with the amount of motivation I’ve had available to channel into various tasks I’ve needed to get done for a while. I think it’s been the appropriate choice at this point.<\/p>\n I’m now looking forward to the new chapters in my life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It’s been a while since my last post however I’ve not been doing nothing. I’ve been off the Anti-Depressant’s a month now completely. I’m shocked at the positives that have come from that so quickly. Now before I go any further don’t think for a minute that I believe that taking the course of AD’s […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,30,27,3,22,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1588","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-art","category-creative-writing","category-depression","category-general","category-health","category-work"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1588","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1588"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1588\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1593,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1588\/revisions\/1593"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1588"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1588"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1588"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}