{"id":1620,"date":"2018-05-21T05:37:51","date_gmt":"2018-05-20T18:37:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/?p=1620"},"modified":"2018-05-21T05:37:51","modified_gmt":"2018-05-20T18:37:51","slug":"one-two-five-and-out","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/?p=1620","title":{"rendered":"One, Two, Five and out…"},"content":{"rendered":"

So it’s back to the drawing board for me. That old devil and I just couldn’t reignite the old flames enough for me to be able to hang in there when it was getting tough. To be fair it wasn’t anyone’s fault particularly.<\/p>\n

I was into my third week of the commute to Melbourne. Training had technically finished but there was still no work in my designated region therefore it was a situation of going where the current work was: Melbourne suburbs and CBD. At that time I came down with what I refer to the cold from hell<\/i>. It knocked me flat for the best part of three weeks, I didn’t have a hope while trying to commute. The two times I tried to go back to work during that period I was a heap on the floor by the end of the day. I was physically and emotionally exhausted. Getting up at 05:15 and getting home at 19:00 each day just weren’t going to allow me to be able to fight it off. Anxiety and Depression were having a field day with me, they may as well have been pre-emptively dancing on my grave.<\/p>\n

To top it off, around the middle of week four, Tiggakat<\/a> decided to go for a walkabout without consultation. I was shattered. She returned about 22:30 on the fourth night after she’d disappeared, thankfully as healthy as I could expect being unharmed, simply hungry and thirsty. Clearly she had a story to tell me but I was just too human<\/i> to understand. She has been quite chatty since her return.<\/p>\n

By the end of week five I had to resign. There was still no clear deadline for a regional handover of work, and I couldn’t face another commute. Even if I’d been able to pick up regional work immediately at the start of week six, I was basically too much of a physical and mental wreck to even be able to accept and manage it. They couldn’t give me a timeline and I couldn’t in return give them a timeline on my health improving. End of a chapter.<\/p>\n

There were a few small positives out of the experience: I can say without a single doubt now that I for one am unable to physically or mentally (in particular) deal with a commute to work of that type day after day. It’s beyond me now. Additionally I did receive some money before winding up, so I’ve managed to close off a couple of large bills. So at least I’m heading forward on the basis of zero again rather than a negative position immediately. Something to be pleased about and to have brought out of it all.<\/p>\n

It was a grasp at an opportunity that just didn’t pan out for me but I guess needed to be accepted and seen through as best I could. Now it’s regroup, get healthy again and just move on.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

So it’s back to the drawing board for me. That old devil and I just couldn’t reignite the old flames enough for me to be able to hang in there when it was getting tough. To be fair it wasn’t anyone’s fault particularly. I was into my third week of the commute to Melbourne. Training […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[27,23,3,24,22,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1620","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-depression","category-furbag","category-general","category-goals","category-health","category-work"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1620","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1620"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1620\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1621,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1620\/revisions\/1621"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1620"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1620"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/m0rg0th.andulain.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1620"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}