Archive for April, 2010

Over Friday already…

Friday, April 30th, 2010

*sigh* I’m glad it’s Friday, I’m a bit tired of the Political Machinations going on at work lately. Looking forward to just getting out of the place tonight. Going to need some unwinding tonight…

From the mouth of a babe…

Tuesday, April 27th, 2010

Today I was completely taken aback by the comment of a small child. I’ve been astounded by it all day, and amazed at the impact on me…

*shakes head*

The Long and Winding Road…

Monday, April 26th, 2010

A more settled day today.

I’m not cured, I’m sure it’s going to take many years for this to desire to be quelled. Still once before 15 years ago this happened, and eventually over the last couple of years has acquiesced to simply a fondness. It may have taken 13 odd years, but it’s intensity has eventually lessened, reality has taken hold and now that deep desire but a memory!

What’s happening at present has more complications, but all will be resolved given the fullness of time and acceptance of the state of the Cosmos.

At least in this instance I’m going to win either which way, because even if nothing changes, I’m still blessed. All such intense feelings whether they be love or anger eventually “die” if not nourished. But I’ll still be left with something wonderful. Such is the way of the Cosmos.

White Knuckle Day…

Sunday, April 25th, 2010

Obviously I don’t have all the holes plugged up yet, the Committee’s running rampant and I am just not yet able to hand it over to the Cosmos. I’ve been here before, you’d think it would have become easy by now. As Caligula states in the movie of the same name, “you can’t have both for the same price!”

I know I’ll get through it, work through it, but I’m knots and fire today. I need a distraction for the day. For those of you who come into contact with me, forgive me for being a bit “ratty” today.

H2O falling…

Thursday, April 22nd, 2010

Rain…By the Cosmos I love it, it never fails to cheer me and refreshes my Soul!

Millstones…

Thursday, April 22nd, 2010

A tough week at work exacerbated by family factors at other times! Furbag has been equally tough on me this week for no apparent reason. However work’s done for the week, off until Tuesday. Looking forward to something different.

My Runes have been hopeful this week, but none boding fruition in the short term. I’m still bouncing like a bearing in a pinball machine!

Simple is best…

Saturday, April 17th, 2010

A long and hard working day, but rewarded with seeing a happy and relieved smile and a heartfelt hug. I can’t think of a better sense of having done something good for another.

A day to reflect…

Friday, April 16th, 2010

Over today I’ve spent several hours chatting to different people about life and living. I’ve remembered how lucky I am to be alive AND happy. Obviously happiness is still a commodity in short supply.

I guess these days I sort have gotten into the habit of taking the fact I’m happy most of the time for granted. In fact it’s been nearly a year since my last bout of deep depression.

Bouts of depression aside though, I’ve been happy for the best part of 20 years now, and there’s no doubt that’s something to be grateful for, and to show thanks in life where ever I can. Every little bit of good I do in the world is a way of showing my gratitude for what was shown to me in the first place and has kept me going since.

Thanks to all those that gave for me, taught me to give, and I hope I do as well for others.

Automatic purchase…

Thursday, April 15th, 2010

Well there are times I just can’t help myself and just cave in to the instant gratification and lack of thought. After all my ranting and concern about the release of Lord of the Rings on Blue-Ray, what did I do? I walked straight into JB today and walked out with a copy of each of the movies in the trilogy…

And the Raven says Forevermore…

Wednesday, April 14th, 2010

Mmm…

Return to Forever -> Live at Montreux [2008]

Takes me back…King Crimson to come after, so a bit of time travel it is for me tonight.

Thanks Steve!