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03
February

The Art Life…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Art, Film, General, Work

I’ve been watching The Art Life, a documentary about David Lynch and “The Art Life”. It’s such a different picture of David Lynch than I’ve previously had, so much so that I was wondering if there are two David Lynch artists, the Director and the Artist. By that I mean literally separate human beings. But […]

21
May

So it’s back to the drawing board for me. That old devil and I just couldn’t reignite the old flames enough for me to be able to hang in there when it was getting tough. To be fair it wasn’t anyone’s fault particularly. I was into my third week of the commute to Melbourne. Training […]

25
March

Remembering Old Blues…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, General, Work

It’s been over two and a half years since I left my last full-time position and quite regularly I’m left scratching my head some days how I’ve managed to survive it. The reality is that I wouldn’t have survived it without family & friends. I’m extremely grateful to all concerned. It seems that an old […]

14
July

Two Years On…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Dreams, Furbag, General, Health, House, Philosophy, Work

So here I am two years down the track after leaving my former full-time employer. It’s been a rough journey and it’s still not over. I suppose the positive of it is that I’m still here. I use “suppose” because there’s been times that I’ve been pretty unsure about that. I’ve definitely felt like there’s […]

It’s come to my attention in the last few days just how much my study has been turned upside down over the last few months with various “spring cleans”. The very important workstation configuration is critical to getting work done in the quickest and most comfortable way. Clearly I’d forgotten just how well configured my […]

It’s been a while since my last post however I’ve not been doing nothing. I’ve been off the Anti-Depressant’s a month now completely. I’m shocked at the positives that have come from that so quickly. Now before I go any further don’t think for a minute that I believe that taking the course of AD’s […]

I can’t say it was a great weekend of activity, although I did help a friend out with something that’s been holding her back from getting a lot of work done. It’s good to know you can help friends and receive the simple joy and satisfaction that comes with that and the recognise the appreciation […]

27
February

The Maelstrom…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Dreams, Philosophy, Winge, Work

It seems I’m in a holding pattern, slowly spiralling inwards but not really reaching a destination, i.e. a goal. Financially I’ve slowed the sinking, but the lifeboat is still leaking slowly, with the threat of a major leak constantly a threat. Purposiveness is disintegrating slowly too which is as concerning if not more. I’m steeling […]

16
February

Well I’ve been offline nearly a month now while changing over to the NBN. I won’t say it has been the smoothest of processes by a long shot. It’s been punctuated by me chasing my provider for updates of an install that has been both ignored by NBN for two weeks before even filing an […]

09
February

How Good is it to be Australian…

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This last six weeks has been extremely challenging, from an emotional, psychological and financial perspectives. All in all I’m fairly exhausted and feel like I’ve run out of steam and yet keep rolling along being pulled by a tow rope that’s taking me nowhere I want to go. Unemployment has finally taken it’s forgone conclusion […]

If I was to sum up the year that’s pretty much now past, I’d have to say it’s not been the best of years for me. That said, it’s certainly not been the worst of years, it would have had to be a total train wreck for me to think that of it. There have […]

31
December

I’ve at least got the glimmerings of hope that the New Year may not be as hard as this outgoing year has been. There’s not necessarily anything earth shattering that’s happened over the last week to make me feel this way that I can pinpoint. Christmas was uneventful, but not unpleasant, and that’s about the […]

01
December

Well I can barely credit it being December now. It’s not so long ago I was still getting organised for my NZ South Island trip! There’s been quite a bit happen over the year I guess, but unfortunately it looks like I’m seeing the year out with out any supplementary work to assist me. I’ve […]

15
November

Networks…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Games, General, Work

Much the same as yesterday. I did join a “meetup.com” group for boardgames. I’m also going to try a weekly gaming session at GUF to ensure I get out of the house a couple of times a week for some fun. Networking might help with some work to keep the wolves at bay too!

11
November

It’s amazing how Public Holidays become meaningless to you when you’re currently not working. I hadn’t even realised it was a local public holiday. To be honest it’s one of those that doesn’t really seem to have much meaning to me, nor I’m sure many others, other than an excuse for a day off. Such […]

10
November

Being Kind to Myself…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, General, Health, Work

Today was just another day spent trying to come up with more ideas about kicking off small opportunities to enter into the coming holiday season with so as to have something running next year. Employment opportunities traditionally slow down at this time of the year here, and don’t really kick off again until middle to […]

02
November

Breadcrumbs & Salt…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: General, Goals, Health, House, Winge, Work

Less than impressed today. Apparently my “overly generous” unemployment support has been reduced with a fine for “non compliance”, i.e. not logging onto an online course. Fine equals 10% of benefit. Hilarious.

23
October

Brainstorming…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Goals, Health, House, Work

A day to gather my resources I guess. Brainstorming survival options.

17
October

Leaking Lifeboat…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Health, House, Humour, Work

Well any quick reprieve from this continuing downward trend in my capacity to stay emotionally afloat has been swiftly shot down with the email this morning advising that I was unsuccessful with the interview from last week. As I said to a couple of friends, I gave up trying to anticipate any interview results some […]

15
October

By the Campfire…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Health, Work

I feel my level of Depression increasing daily at the moment. It’s not so much the lack of job prospects, it’s simply the Jackals “just outside the range of firelight”, and the Vultures circling above; financially I mean of course. I get daily calls for which I have no option at this stage to deal […]

14
October

Slowly Sliding…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, Dreams, Health, Work

There’s really nothing to highlight today, I’m feeling the Depression closing in as the “unknown number” calls keep increasing and there’s only one potential job on the horizon. As I said, I felt the interview went well so I can only wait until next week to find out how it will pan out.

It’s been a fairly disheartening day. I watched my tax return of a bit over two thousand evaporate into paying bills that have been building up. It took less than five minutes to vanish and produce nothing except reaching ground zero from underneath. It seems the only advance we’ve made from the Eighteenth Century is […]

12
October

As best as I can tell the interview went well, but I’ve learned that I’m clearly not the best judge of such things these days, as you really can’t tell what’s going on behind the scenes. Often we are applying for jobs that are already decided for some internal candidate, and the business is just […]

11
October

Regrouping Tactics…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: Depression, General, Goals, Health, Work

Bit of a weird day so far, I slept in and that’s always a bit disconcerting for me these days. I realise now that I can’t afford my sleep pattern to be messed up for more than a day or so. I have decided to stay on the Anti-Depressants for another three to six months […]

07
October

Small Steps Ahead…

Written by m0rg0th. No comments Posted in: General, Health, Photography, Work

So it seems that I must have been reasonably successful during the Assessment Session and have been invited to an Interview next week. Interestingly I don’t feel much pressure for that after yesterday’s session. I’m also planning a Trip to the Grampians to catch up with Tony & Bec on Saturday.