My Runes are telling my it’s going to be tough going with the Cosmos in the medium term, that I need to change and that much that was, needs to be left behind. There is no satisfactory refuge that isn’t a failure to face reality. I feel like I’m in Milkwood. I think I need a very very long holiday…
Ethereal medicine…
2010 -
05.03
Morning was a bit tough, but made easier by a friend cheering me up although I’m fairly certain she’s unaware how she did. Cosmos always seems to put the right person in the right place at the right time, even if it’s across the Ether!
The World is … Flat!
2010 -
05.03
Today I seem to lack enthusiasm for anything really, if a Red Head lay in front of me I’d walk on by I think…
There comes a time…
2010 -
05.02
This week I plan finish Mass Effect 2 by the end of the week. In fact I will have no sex until I finish this game, so it better be before week’s end, or I’m going to be moving towards a sex free weekend! It’s been too long waiting to finish. I have at least 3 others to finish too. I may have to apply the same caveat to them also…
Over Friday already…
2010 -
04.30
*sigh* I’m glad it’s Friday, I’m a bit tired of the Political Machinations going on at work lately. Looking forward to just getting out of the place tonight. Going to need some unwinding tonight…
From the mouth of a babe…
2010 -
04.27
Today I was completely taken aback by the comment of a small child. I’ve been astounded by it all day, and amazed at the impact on me…
*shakes head*
The Long and Winding Road…
2010 -
04.26
A more settled day today.
I’m not cured, I’m sure it’s going to take many years for this to desire to be quelled. Still once before 15 years ago this happened, and eventually over the last couple of years has acquiesced to simply a fondness. It may have taken 13 odd years, but it’s intensity has eventually lessened, reality has taken hold and now that deep desire but a memory!
What’s happening at present has more complications, but all will be resolved given the fullness of time and acceptance of the state of the Cosmos.
At least in this instance I’m going to win either which way, because even if nothing changes, I’m still blessed. All such intense feelings whether they be love or anger eventually “die” if not nourished. But I’ll still be left with something wonderful. Such is the way of the Cosmos.
White Knuckle Day…
2010 -
04.25
Obviously I don’t have all the holes plugged up yet, the Committee’s running rampant and I am just not yet able to hand it over to the Cosmos. I’ve been here before, you’d think it would have become easy by now. As Caligula states in the movie of the same name, “you can’t have both for the same price!”
I know I’ll get through it, work through it, but I’m knots and fire today. I need a distraction for the day. For those of you who come into contact with me, forgive me for being a bit “ratty” today.
H2O falling…
2010 -
04.22
Rain…By the Cosmos I love it, it never fails to cheer me and refreshes my Soul!
Millstones…
2010 -
04.22
A tough week at work exacerbated by family factors at other times! Furbag has been equally tough on me this week for no apparent reason. However work’s done for the week, off until Tuesday. Looking forward to something different.
My Runes have been hopeful this week, but none boding fruition in the short term. I’m still bouncing like a bearing in a pinball machine!