Rain…By the Cosmos I love it, it never fails to cheer me and refreshes my Soul!
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Millstones…
2010 -
04.22
A tough week at work exacerbated by family factors at other times! Furbag has been equally tough on me this week for no apparent reason. However work’s done for the week, off until Tuesday. Looking forward to something different.
My Runes have been hopeful this week, but none boding fruition in the short term. I’m still bouncing like a bearing in a pinball machine!
Simple is best…
2010 -
04.17
A long and hard working day, but rewarded with seeing a happy and relieved smile and a heartfelt hug. I can’t think of a better sense of having done something good for another.
A day to reflect…
2010 -
04.16
Over today I’ve spent several hours chatting to different people about life and living. I’ve remembered how lucky I am to be alive AND happy. Obviously happiness is still a commodity in short supply.
I guess these days I sort have gotten into the habit of taking the fact I’m happy most of the time for granted. In fact it’s been nearly a year since my last bout of deep depression.
Bouts of depression aside though, I’ve been happy for the best part of 20 years now, and there’s no doubt that’s something to be grateful for, and to show thanks in life where ever I can. Every little bit of good I do in the world is a way of showing my gratitude for what was shown to me in the first place and has kept me going since.
Thanks to all those that gave for me, taught me to give, and I hope I do as well for others.
A quick Dock in Port…
2010 -
04.10
Fun night, bit of “hanging” around with “encouragement” by an old friend, although left to sleep alone and no breakfast duet… 🙁
Still worked off the week’s work angst 🙂 And it rained last night and this morning, so a not too shabby start to a weekend.
Did manage a quick slip into JB HiFi early last night before the show and picked up “9” on Blue-Ray. Should enjoy that tonight I think.
Thursday night ramblings…
2010 -
04.08
For a short week it’s been a very very LONG week! Can’t wait for 17:00 tomorrow.
This week i’ve been filling two roles, and I’ve been dragged into more work politics than I’d like: I can’t wait to go back to being a “pleb” on the ground. I’m much happier forgetting the politics and getting back on the ground helping get REAL work done!
Also this week I’ve started an exercise (or perhaps I REALLY mean exOrcise) regime. My last threesome left me feeling somewhat less than 100% up to par so I’ve found the motivation to try and regain my fitness level of 10 years ago. If nothing else at the moment it’s helping me sleep better at night. Seems Furbag is having trouble waking me up last few nights.
Given that tomorrow is Friday, I may go for a quick trip to check out JB Hifi and see if LoRT Blue-Ray is there yet, given it was released on the 6th just gone. I’m still dubious about the worth given the lack lustre reviews, but somehow I don’t think I’ll be able to help myself…
Mirror of Dreams -> Reflections of Madness
2010 -
03.31
I wish the Committee of Desire didn’t have such free reign in my head somedays! A Demon that was sleeping seems to have turned in it’s slumber and appears to be waking again. It shouldn’t be possible to want something so badly that you logically know you can’t have and have to keep telling yourself to stop thinking you can.
The Four Corners…
2010 -
03.26
It seems people are falling apart around me. Two friends have told me today they’ve left their respective long term partners, and another two told me that they’re precariously balanced with regard to their relationships.
All of them involve children of some age under Ten, which means it will be difficult for the children to understand what their parents need to do and why. It’s amazing how far apart people will grow before they take the necessary steps, or even admit that’s what needs to be done. Still such investments are difficult to release and there just isn’t a nice and easy way out. I know, I’m a nice guy who likes the idea of an easy way out but has never found one!
Furbag and I have clocked up Fifteen years together, maybe I’m in for another surprise before the week’s out!
Somehow, Some other place, Some other time…
2010 -
03.11
I wonder how many “defining” moments a person experiences in his or her life and actually recognises them at the time rather than through hindsight?
I know I’ve had four that I can honestly say that at the moment each occurred it was fundamentally clear that something spiritually profound had happened in my life even though I could necessarily recognise the details.
The First was in my early Teens when I realised that I had developed a taste for Mood altering drugs that had become an insatiable hunger that I could never assuage no matter how much, or whatever I took. I could see it stripping everything from my being attempting to rot my very core. I was powerless to move at the time and could only tread water.
The Second was not all that long after when I was taken to a Coven and realised I had been confronted and touched by Evil (yes with a captial “E”). I have never fled from anything with such fear for my very being on a level much deeper than the physical. It took me months to feel “safe” anywhere. I don’t generally talk about that night, but I shudder whenever I recall it.
The Third was when I was 3 days clean, just gone into detox and found myself in an Narcotics Anonymous meeting in Footscray on a Thursday night. I was stunned by the realisation that I now had an out from the previously hopeless and seemingly inescapable pit of self destruction and despair. I’d had no true experience of the positively spiritual until that moment in my life.
The Fourth is also a much more positive one. During the last I was struck immediately by the power of the presence of a single person, and became immediately aware that they would have more than a moment in my life. I don’t know that the reverse was true, but I guess that such epiphanies are from within, and nothing external offers others such insight into our own personal interaction with the Cosmos. But here was a person I could not help but want in my life in some shape or form. Revelation after revelation proceeded, faster than I could believe. And now here I am stunned at what I could not foresee despite the impact at the time.
Cosmic wonders abound both within and without and life IS worth living.
The Week that yet was…
2010 -
03.09
Here’s hoping this week is not as insane as last. Either way, the weekend’s been fantastic for the soul!